Wednesday, June 14, 2017

Target Beauty Box - June 2017

 I recently received the June edition of the Target Beauty Box.  This one was $7 plus tax.  You really have to act fast when these come out because they have some really great stuff in them and go really fast.  I belong to "My subscription addiction"
Link Here >> Subscriptions!!!!
So I get notifications on when it's out and what is in it before it actually comes out.

This specific box is Summer Themed, which who doesnt like the summer and summer beauty products?  Once again, the contents are wrapped in cheery summer fun color orange tissue paper and as always, you receive a $3 coupon off a $15 health & beauty purchase at Target.

This month the box included the following items.  

  • Hawaiian Tropic Island Sport Sunscreen- 2 oz
  • Jon Frieda Beach Blonde Sea Salt Spray- 1 oz
  • Sinful Colors Nail Polish- .5 fl oz
  • Masque Bar Soothing Sheet Mask- 1 ct
  • Aussie 3-Minute Miracle Treatment- 1.7 oz
  • Schick Hydro Silk Women’s Razor- 1 ct
  • NYX Gotcha Covered Concealer in Medium

 The Hawaiian Tropic is the perfect size to toss into your bag to carry with you on the go.  You never know when you will need some sunscreen and its always good to have some with you.

Not sure what I will do with the sea salt spray since I'm not a blond but I think its supposed to give you that, "I've been at the beach all day" matted hair look??

I love the nail polish in Island Coral, its a very summer beachy neutral color.

Im waiting to get more sun before I use the sheet mask, I have a feeling its going to be great. I love those facials that are like a paper mask you just place over your face.

Anything from Aussie is great for me, I just LOVE their products and they are very affordable and make your hair so soft and beautiful.

The Hydro silk women's razor is excellent and that right there is almost a $10 value!

Although I don't really use concealer, it seems to cover pretty well.

I definitely like Targets box way better than Walmart's box.  Although Walmart's box is only $5 its mostly samples that you can get for free on the individual websites. Where at least a few items in the Target box is full sized so much more worth the $7 plus tax it costs.

Also Target offers other specialty boxes, like they have a men's father day box available now, and they have a health box that comes out once a month.

So if you are going to buy into a beauty box, I would without a doubt pick this one before the rest.  The only odd thing is that you have to order it each month so you have the option to take it or not.

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

50 Things That Really Piss Me Off

  1. People that do not stop at stop signs, no, slowing down is NOT stopping.
  2. People that walk behind your car when you are trying to pull out of a parking space, are they retarded?
  3. People who stop more than one car length from the car in front of them at stop lights/signs,  or in traffic, what is that about?
  4. People who pull into traffic and then slow down, are they trying to cause accidents?
  5. People that park on the line of a parking space, so that the next space is too small to fit in.
  6. People that are way too aggressive in their driving habits.
  7. People with huge gas guzzling, FU mobiles that think because they can drive over bumps without feeling them everyone else can too!
  8. People with huge gas guzzling, FU mobiles that act like that are carrying around dynamite when they go over bumps.
  9. People that cut corners instead of actually making the turn.
  10. People with huge gas guzzling FU mobiles
  11. People that drive BMWs, Lexus’s, and Mercedes all SUCK at driving.
  12. People who are too busy talking on their cell phones to pay attention to the road – see # 11 – it’s usually them.
  13. People that speed up when you are trying to change lanes or pull into traffic, were you born an asshole?
  14. People with bumper stickers on their cars, the more there are, the worst they are at driving.
  15. People that do not understand what a 4-way or 3-way stop is.
  16. People that do not understand what Yield means.
  17. People that walk in the street, not on the sidewalk.
  18. People that do not say “please”, “thank you” or “EXCUSE ME”.
  19. People that talk loudly on their cell phones in public.
  20. People that talk on their cell phones when they are in line at the supermarket, really? Can't it wait?
  21. People that run into you with their shopping carts then look at you like YOU did something wrong to them.
  22. Bus Drivers
  23. Taxi Drivers
  24. People that race with their shopping basket so that they can get in front of you in line.
  25. People that only speak American when there is money involved.
  26. People that refuse to learn to speak American while living in the United States.
  27. Illegal Aliens
  28. Politicians
  29. The fact that Politicians REFUSE to make a national language – American!
  30. People that think they know everything!
  31. Doctors that think they are Gods
  32. Most lawyers – not mine!
  33. Being the last person to know
  34. Having to stick myself 4 times a day or more - (not anymore!)
  35. Having to tell people how to do their jobs - all of the time!
  36. Having to do other people’s jobs because they are too stupid to do it themselves.
  37. People that call you over and over and over again to sell you something you don’t really want or need.
  38. Insurance Companies and Pharmaceutical companies
  39. When a person refuses to take “no” as an answer
  40. People that pay lip service to their religion.
  41. People that preach.
  42. People that lie, cheat and steal.
  43. People that will allow their Constitutional rights to be whittled away all in the name of terrorism.
  44. People that do not use their blinkers.
  45. People that coast through stop signs.
  46. People that are too arrogant to think that they couldn't learn something if they would just shut up and listen to others!
  47. Having to ask the same question over and over and never really getting an answer.
  48. Being ignored when I am speaking.
  49. People that don’t flush at work.
  50. People that always think they have the right of way even when they don’t!

Monday, May 29, 2017

Happy Memorial Day

To all those that have served or are serving, My most heartfelt and sincere THANK YOU for your service.

Saturday, May 20, 2017

Social Media Etiquette

Social media is the bane and black hole of our time.  What I thought started out as a wonderful new communication tool has turned into a dark abyss of overly sensitive cry babies and stereotypical jerks.  I have all the major profiles in the social media outlets, I have also connected with people that I thought I had lost touch with many years ago and also made some good lifelong friends via social media.  So it's not all dark, but folks, it's pretty dark at times.

But lets face it, people do and say some of the stupidest things that you know damn well they would never do if they were standing there right in front of you, am I right?

So I want to take some time today to talk about what is not acceptable behavior on social media.  Because, it seems to have taken the place of actual human interaction, there needs to be some ground rules...

  1.  Don't Be rude or offensive for no good reason.  You must be a freaking idiot or just a really mad person, whatever your problem is, stifle it, no one gives a shit how your day is going.  You need to NOT be on social media till you pull out what ever crawled up your buttox then.  Especially if your nastiness has nothing to do with the conversation at hand.
  2. Don't Forward chain messages.  I did not like them when they were sent via regular mail, I really hate them now.  Texting and messaging was meant for sending private messages NOT for your stupid freaking forwards that Oh BTWs you will NOT be getting a million dollars in a half hour or nor will you be getting health, wealth or prosperity by forwarding those stupid things.  If you really want to tell me you love me, how about calling me or stopping by to tell me to my face?  Nes` Pas`?
  3. Don't Bust in and put your stinking 2 cents in when a conversation is obviously not truly public.  Yes all social media is public, but sometimes, when two or more people are having a real conversation, maybe you should just READ it and not enter it?  Use your better judgement, not every conversation is for you to stick your nose in and drop your 2 cents worth of doo doo and then run.  Sometimes you just need to let shit go without commenting on it.
  4. Don't ask People if they saw your posts.  If they did, maybe they didn't think it was worth replying too?  If they didn't, maybe they too busy not spending 3/4 of there day on Facebook, twitter, instagram, or whatever? Uh yea, let me get back to you on that...
  5. Don't share Amen, Like and "share this" posts.  Fuck you and your Amen and seriously, I don't like anything on social media, well somethings, but certainly nothing you are sharing. I am not a lemming, I do not follow others off a cliff.  Maybe you are, but it's really annoying. Got it? Good.  
  6. Dont complain about everything others post.  Why are you even on Social media if you don't want to hear or communicate?  If you don't like it, GO AWAY! Or better yet, "unfriend" "unfollow" "undo"!
  7. Don't be offended by what people post, then go on your own page to bash what you just saw.  Seriously, you are a little pussy with absolutely ZERO balls or couth.  If you don't like someone or things they post, why are you staying friends with them?  Cut that shit loose.  
  8. Don't post attention getting posts.  If you post something like "at the hospital, send prayers"  damn it, you better be telling us what the hell is wrong!  It is wrong, plain and simple to expect people to not question. That is, unless your wall is so damn boring that you are just seeking attention, there had better be an explanation!
  9. Don't comment on Memes that people post because you don't agree with them.  Memes are meant to be Funny or Satirical for the most part.  Sometimes they are just meant to be ironic, they certainly don't pinpoint or pigeon hole a person's entire existence or views of the world, so don't act as if it does.   They certainly aren't made to start a conversation, more likely they are made as a statement.  Whatever the case, you look like an idiot arguing with a meme.
  10. Don't lecture.  YOU are not the most perfect person in the world.  When you start to lecture, you just look like an idiot and that you are a know-it-all. You can practically hear the eye rolling when people start lecturing, You do not have all the answers.  It is not your place to tell people that, oh you shouldn't do this, or do that, or I'm so right I'm holier than the holiest person that ever walked the earth.  If someone asks for your input by all means, give it to them, but if not, stifle the urge to make yourself look like a asshole.  
In ending, take my advice, don't be a turd on social media.  Your status on social media is that people know of you now since we don't really do face to face anymore.  Do you really want to be known as a hard ass, disrespectful, rogue? Do you want to be known as a self centered know-it-all with a holier than thou complex?  I think not.

Sunday, May 14, 2017

Happy Mothers Day

Some day there will come a time, when you can no longer call or see your mom and tell you that you love her.  Don't let those moments slip away.  Let your mother know how much you love her, don't regret not telling her one day.

Thursday, May 4, 2017

All Clogged Up - Common Problem After Bariatric Surgery

There is a lot of things your bariatric team usually don't tell you before you actually have bariatric surgery.

Maybe they don't say anything because they don't think about it or don't think that it's a point that should be mentioned.  They usually only tell you the bullet points they have in their presentation to persuade you to actually have the operation.  Lets face it, it's a major life changing thing that you are doing to yourself and maybe there just isn't enough time in the day to go over every little single thing that may or may not happen to you, right?

Well I'm here to tell you the good, the bad and the ugly of what happens to a person after they have Bariatric Surgery.

Today's Topic - Constipation...

This is a very real problem and more than just annoying, it can damage you, keep you from losing weight and cause havoc with your insides.

I found that initially it wasn't much of a problem.  I have never been a "regular" pooper but I'd say about 9 months after I had the surgery, things went south and have never really corrected themselves without some help.  I thought at first it was because of the matra, "protein first" and I dutifully always ate my protein before anything else.  Anyone with this tube of a stomach can tell you, if you eat protein first, there isn't really much room for anything else.

I also thought that maybe it was all the vitamins you take at first?  I was on a multi + iron, b-12 sublingual and b-6 sublingual.  Or maybe I wasn't getting enough fiber?  After all, I don't really eat bread anymore except for the occasional piece of toast.  I have also been told that it could be because I am dehydrated and do not drink enough water during the day.  Water is hard for me, I have to mix things into it to get it down.

Whatever it is, it seems that I am not in the minority when it comes to this problem.  I have spoken to many people with the same issue and it seems the majority of them deal with it the same way, which is gentle laxatives a couple times a week.   I have to say, it's probably not the BEST way to deal with it, but it is the easiest.  Also on a side note, you can become addicted or at least dependent on laxatives, so you should only take them if you haven't pooped for at least a few days.

The other thing I want to mention is that most of the people that I have spoken to about this, report that the constipation that they are having is the hard nugget type which usually indicates that you are dehydrated or are lacking fiber. As much as I can say that I have tried to increase both of these things by drinking more water and eating fiber chewys by the handful, neither of those things helped me in any way.

I am starting to think that maybe this is just the new norm for me?  Maybe because food metabolizes differently for me now, this is just the way that it is. Whatever the cause or case, I have found that it's a very common occurrence that is seldom spoken about or addressed by your medical team.  It is however something that you should know before going into this.  I'm not saying that its bad and not to get this surgery because of it, I think that the health benefits far outweigh the minor annoyances, but it's something you should know that may or may not happen to you.  💩

Friday, April 21, 2017

Am I Hungry? Probably Not...

This post is about Head Hunger and how it sabotages your weight loss.

I find posting about some of the problems I have and have had very satisfying and cleansing.  I know that I have an addiction to food and just because I had my stomach removed doesnt make everything all well and good now.  As a matter of fact, having bariatric surgery actually complicates the bad habits that I have put upon myself over the years.

Eating when you are not actually hungry is a problem.  If you eat when you are bored, happy, sad, mad, excited, or nervous, YOU have a problem.  I always used food, usually decadent food, as a crutch, which I'm sure that many of you who read this blog also have done.  Some people do drugs, some people drink alcohol, others go to God, I have always gone to food.  And because of that I have a hard time figuring out if I am actually hungry or not.

Head hunger is when you take your emotions, whatever they are, and your brain reads them as if you are hungry when in fact, you are not.  Even though I have lost a ton of weight, I still struggle with not knowing if what I am feeling is actual hunger or if its just a symptom of an emotion that I am having.  

I don't actually know that it feels like to be hungry.  As with most overweight people I do a lot of grazing during the day so therefore, I couldn't possibly actually BE hungry, right?  And like I said before, what exactly does "hunger" feel like anyway?

According to Wikipedia - Physical Hunger is:

The physical sensation of hunger is related to contractions of the stomach muscles. These contractions—sometimes called hunger pangs once they become severe—are believed to be triggered by high concentrations of the ghrelin hormone. The hormones Peptide YY and Leptin can have an opposite effect on the appetite, causing the sensation of being full. Ghrelin can be released if blood sugar levels get low—a condition that can result from long periods without eating. Stomach contractions from hunger can be especially severe and painful in children and young adults.
Hunger pangs can be made worse by irregular meals. People who can't afford to eat more than once a day sometimes refuse one-off additional meals, because if they don't eat at around the same time on the next days, they may suffer extra severe hunger pangs.[3] Older people may feel less violent stomach contractions when they get hungry, but still suffer the secondary effects resulting from low food intake: these include weakness, irritability and decreased concentration. Prolonged lack of adequate nutrition also causes increased susceptibility to disease and reduced ability for the body to self heal.[4][5]

The truth is, if you eat every 2 or 3 hours, chances are, you are not hungry.  If you have a number of snacks a day, you are not hungry.  If you just put things in your mouth without thinking about it, you are not hungry.  I know, I have never, or at least as far back as I can remember, ever have physical contractions in my stomach telling me I'm hungry.  I would love for just once, to know what that feeling is.

On the flip side of not knowing what the feeling of hunger is, I also did not know what the feeling of "full" felt like.  Of course, I do not have that problem anymore, but there have been occasions that I have eaten too much and that just makes me throw up now.  Before I had bariatric surgery though, I had no idea what it felt like to actually be sated.  

I believe these are a two for one problem with people that are overweight.  Not knowing if you are hungry and not knowing that you are full is just a recipe for disaster or at the very least, a lot of weight gain.

In ending, if you do not keep these two monsters, Hunger and being Sated in check, you will never ever keep your weight in check.  The constant grazing or binge eating will always catch up to you, even if you have had your stomach removed.

Thursday, April 20, 2017

Happy 420

Happy 420 to all those that Participate
May the Powers that be 
Finally realize
that Pot is not a gateway drug
Doctors pushing Oxycodone are!

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Happy Easter

To all my friends that celebrate..

May you find peace and compassion on this day.

Thursday, April 13, 2017

5 Things No One Told Me about BEFORE I had Bariatric Surgery!!!

This is my list of 5 things that no one told to me before I got Bariatric Surgery.

Anyone that has had Bariatric Surgery can tell you.  Most insurance companies will put you through the ringer and make you jump through hoops to even HAVE the surgery.  Even though, for many people, including myself, it will save your life.  They fight tooth and nail to let you have it.

With that said, I had to get cleared by no less than 6 specialist, such as Cardiologist, Pulmonologist, Psychologist, Endocrinologist, Gastroenterologist and Nutritionist.  But during NONE of these 6 or more months of appointments and testing, did any of them mention the 5 things in the list below.  So if you are thinking of having this operation or already have had it, keep these things in mind:

1. Constipation is a fact.  I do not think that I have met anyone that had NOT had a problem with Constipation.  I didn't have the problem at first, I suppose because just about everything you eat in the first 6 months to a year is either liquid or soft.  But after that year when I found that I could eat other foods in moderation, I became constipated.  I don't know why, it just happens...fiber helps a little, but I would say, just get used to it and try to get ahead of it.

2. You really will NEVER eat the same way again, EVER...and when I say that I mean NEVER.  Oh I can still eat most things, although not very much of anything really, but there will be foods that you just can not stomach anymore, no matter what you do or how you eat it, it will make you nauseous or just sit in your stomach like a rock.  And don't get pissed but some of the foods maybe things that you LOVED previously.  To this day, I still can not eat tough or dense cuts of beef or pork, cole slaw, more than a tbsp or 2 of Ice cream at a time, over greasy foods, anything that is too rich or dense will seriously put me in a B.A.D. mood.

3. If you have been overweight to obese for most of your life, like I was, Do NOT expect to all of a sudden become 125lb diva.  The truth is, the older you are, the harder it still will be to get to what they call your "goal" weight.  Unless you have a private chef and can work out 3 or 4 times a week for 4 or more hours a day, don't expect to reach your "goal".  Let's be realistic, You were fat, you got that way because you didn't eat right and didn't exercise.  Just because you had this operation and will probably lose a good amount of weight, don't expect miracles.  

4. Chances are, if you do not change the way you eat, you will gain weight back.  I know it's hard to stop doing what you have always done.  And sometimes your body just battles against you.  But it's the truth as much as I do not want to admit it, it happens to more people than anyone actually ever talks about.

5. Oh you never heard of Dumping Syndrome?  It happens to the best of us and without warning.  Its when food is passed through your sleeve of a stomach too quickly, usually this happens with things very high in sugar or carbohydrates or very fatty.  It usually happens a short while after you eat.  You will get nauseous, dizzy, anxious and probably get diarrhea.  Believe me you will remember it.   The few times I have gotten it, I was sick to my stomach for hours after.  Just remember to connect the dots, don't eat whatever it was that made you feel like that.

Tuesday, April 4, 2017


On occasion, ok maybe more than just occasionally, I get email from people.  Some I know, many I don't.  They ask me questions about my world views and bariatric stuff.  I have also gotten some hate e-mail too from time to time, but I figure those are just people with nothing better to do and way too much time on their hands.

Yea SO WHAT that I am opinionated?  If we were having these conversations over a bottle of wine or cocktail, most likely they would be laughing at the world with me instead of taking me so seriously.  I swear people have lost their ability to laugh at stuff anymore.  But I digress...

Anyway, I have compiled a shortlist of some of the most common questions I have been asked.  Which I will answer, to the best of my ability.

Q.      Why don't you allow comments on your blog posts?
A.       Well, truth be told, I don't really want to moderate what other people                   have to say.  This is my blog, my world, my rules.  If you really want to
           make comments, I have a facebook page associated with this blog,
          you can comment there, or not, I really don't care.

Q.      You can be really nasty and opinionated, what's up with that?
A.       Have you ever heard of the Jersey Attitude?  I am not nasty, I am a
           Satirical Commentator.  Laugh once in awhile so your face don't crack!

Q.      How can you be an Atheist and an Ordained Minister?
A.      Do I really need to believe there is an Omnipotent Being living in the sky
          to be able to marry people and say eulogies?  Do I need to believe there is 
          a heaven and hell so I do right by my fellow human beings and other living           things?  Just because I do not have the threat of heaven and hell over my              head, doesnt me that I can not or will not administer kindness and                          compassion.

Q.        When you had your stomach removed, did it hurt?
A.        Its really different for everyone.  I felt like I was hit by a train for about 2                days.   I never really had any actual pain though.  The incisions were a
            little itchy but I don't think I took anything stronger than motrin when I
            got home.

So those are the questions that I am asked most and the standard answers that I give when I get them.  If you have any questions for me.  Please do not hesitate to email me via the contact form on the sidebar of this page or directly at:

Tuesday, March 28, 2017

The Curious Charm

It is with Great Pride and Joy that I bring this news...

Over the last few weeks I have been putting together an Etsy Shop and trying to get it off the ground.

It takes a lot of time and effort to actually get a small business off the ground. Between marketing and actually making product, my time has been limited with this blog.

I am only currently shipping to the contiguous United States.

Also beginning today, You can get free shipping by using FREE4ME at the checkout.  I have lots of new things in the works so check back often.

I will get back to it soon, I promise.

You can visit my store at: The Curious Charm
which will redirect you to my Etsy Shop.
You can go directly to the shop at: Curious Charm Boutique

I would really appreciate it if you could "favorite" my shop or 1 or 2 of my products.  It helps getting found in searches.

Thanks so much,

Thursday, March 9, 2017

On Not Believing In A God

Recently I was listening to a news program on my way home from work. I have a 45 minute commute so I like to listen to talk radio in the afternoons.

They were talking about how there was a Gallup poll done in 2012 about if people in the USA would Elect an Atheist for President.  The pollster came to the conclusion that only about 54% of the people in the United States would elect an Atheist for President.  Gallup Poll  As it turns out, the only other group in the bottom two was Muslims which was 58%.  So more idiots would vote for a muslim before an atheist...

Are you fucking kidding me?  Then the call ins started, and I will admit, I was thoroughly appalled by what I heard some people said about what they thought Atheists were.   A few of them said we are Heartless and war mongers?  And because we didn't believe in God we couldn't have any compassion?

Seriously this is one of the reasons I think people in this country are so fucked up.  Ignorance.  Flat out stupid. It's like we fucked all the smart out of people and now we are left with the idiots.  It's like believing all Muslims are terrorist!  Or all Christians are pedofiles!

I just want to set the record straight.  Atheists are NOT Devil Worshippers.  As a matter of fact, I think I would rather have an Atheist as President before some bible toting, talking out both sides of their mouths, hypocritical Mormon, Evangelical or Christian.

Atheists are the enlightened of the world, we do not need to be preached to about the difference between good and bad, we do good deeds because we KNOW it's the right thing to do.   I can not speak for my fellow Atheists but as far as myself, I give a lot to charities during the year.  I am always kind to all things great and small and tolerant of others even if I do not agree with them.  I show empathy and compassion to those less fortunate and I am happy with the life I have been given.  I also do believe that life and health are a gift, I believe that you should do to others what you would have done to yourself.

Am I starting to sound Christ like yet? ✟

People are so critical and hypocritical of what they know nothing about.  I believe that people that are bereft of intellect are afraid of what they do not know and with those misunderstandings comes fear and then hate.  Its pretty much the same with all things that can be considered different, be it race, religion or lack thereof, or social status or even weight.

Atheists are not bad people, we just want to live our lives and not feel we have to believe in the boogeyman in the sky.  That, and that we are not hypocrites...

One woman that called into that talk show, had the gigantic BALLS to say that Atheists shouldn't force their opinions on others. WTF?  Seriously?  Is it me that is the only one to see the hypocrisy with that? Oh you mean forcing your opinion about abortions down people's throats? Or that you feel if someone doesnt believe in your god they are heathens?  You mean like that kind of forcing someone to believe something YOU don't?

Believe me Lady, none of us Atheists wants you in our club, we do have a minimum IQ for joining and it's painfully Obvious that you do NOT meet the minimum.  We are not going to preach to you about how stupid your God is or that you only do anything good for anyone else because you think if you don't you are going straight to hell.  Which, if there was a hell, I'm pretty sure it would be full to the gills with the rotten Christians, Evangelicals and Mormons there are in the world.

So In ending, Atheists are people too, just because we don't buy into your boogy boogy man in the sky delusion doesnt make us Horrible people, as a matter of fact we would probably do MORE good than any Catholic or Protestant President has ever done mostly because we do not allow our beliefs interfere with our politics.  Which is the way our forefathers intended it to be!

Tuesday, March 7, 2017

Target Beauty Box - March 2017

It's been awhile since I did a Product Reveiw and although I get them all the time, I have been very caught up in all the political hoopla going on here in the good ole US of A lately.  I have also been setting up my own online store but more about that later.
Time for a break from that.

This is my 4th Target Beauty Box.  It is the March 2017 Spring Break Box.  It costed $7 including shipping.  Usually
Targets BBs come out once a month, sometime around the first few days of the month and you have to be fast to get one because they go quickly.  Normally they are between $7 and $10 a month depending on what is in them.

This month the box included the following items:

  • Dove Refresh + Care Volume & Fullness Dry Shampoo
  • Jergens Natural Glow Wet Skin Moisturizer
  • Neutrogena Hydro Boost Hydrating Lip Shine
  • SoapBox Bamboo Shampoo + Conditioner
  • MISSHA Time Revolution The First Treatment Essence
  • Skinfix Foaming Oil Cleanser

There was nothing in this box that was full sized.  If the box is on the more expensive side ($10) usually there is at least one full sized item.  Unlike the Walmart beauty box, there is usually no "free sample" foil packets in the Target BB.

I really like the Jergen Wet Glow after shower stuff, it smells really nice and although I do have an olive complexion, its still kind of hard to tell if it's working or not.

I have also been using the MISSHA Time Revolution but I have not seen any substantial difference in the last week.

The Skinfix is just a little too oily for my skin.

The Dove Refresh + Care, I do like to use between shampoos and it smells very nice.

The Neutrogena Hydro Boost Hydrating Lip Shine, is a bit too thick for me, feels like I have vasoline on my lips, reminiscent of the 80's.

I have not used the SoapBox Bamboo Shampoo + Conditioner yet but it smells very nice and I can't wait to see what it does for my hair.

So there you have it.  It wasn't a bad box this month but I have had better beauty boxes.

Thursday, February 23, 2017

Is Bariatric Surgery Right for YOU?

Anyone that has been through the process of preparing for Bariatric surgery knows how long and drawn out it and be.  They also know how many hoops your insurance company will make you jump through before they actually allow you to have the surgery.  For those of you that have really great insurance and didn't have to jump through hoops, I commend your employer for caring enough about you to give you such a benefit, even if you have to pay for it one way or the other.  The rest of us though, have to deal with the bureaucracy of Health Insurance that include co-pays and coinsurance costs.

From my first appointment with my surgeon to the day that I was operated on, was about 6 months and multiple different doctors appointments and procedures.  I expected this though, I was fully prepared for what I was up against.  I also had to cancel my surgery one time because I was fighting with one of my doctors (i'll go into that another time). I had to be cleared by several doctors for the surgery including, a sleep and pulmonary doctor, I also had to have a sleep test, a cardiologist, I had to have a stress test and echocardiogram, a gastroenterologist, I had to have a endoscopy, and a Psychologist, they had me take some test that the insurance company would not pay for, so it was an out of pocket expense along with an hour session.

The one doctor that I feel is probably the most important doctor to be cleared by but yet only one session was required was the Psychologist.

I believe that when you are at the point with your weight that it is effecting everything about you, moving, your health, your brain, your thoughts, your daily activities, and you have made the decision that this procedure is what you need to do, you really need to understand that it is a life altering decision, once you do this, you can not change your mind and have it undone at any time.  It also will affect you in one way or another for the rest of your life.

Another thing I believe is that if you have less than 100lbs to lose, you should probably try something else first.  You may have to go extreme, but do try other methods to lose weight first.  Unless you have an underlying cause for not being able to lose weight, this should be a last resort.

When I first started thinking about having this procedure done, I did check out some support groups, online only because, I just don't have enough hours in the day to go to in person meetings.  But I was able to get enough information to make me realise that there was really no support there.  Mostly it was people who were either whiney little brats or acted like they knew everything there was to know about bariatrics.  There were very very few people that actually could add some insightful ideas and advice but they were so far and few in between, it just really wasn't worth the effort.  I can not stress this enough, and I usually say it at least once for every Bariatric post that I make, nothing takes the place of the advice and counseling you get from your surgeon and their staff.  If you have questions ASK them first!

Whatever your reasons for having this surgery, are not really enough of a reason for actually having the surgery.  You should always weigh the pros to the cons. Of course there are many Pros for going ahead with a surgery like this, not just the weight loss but also the health benefits are wonderful and uplifting.  But there are also the cons, and there are a few.

The possibility of complications if you don't follow your surgeon's directions, is very possible.  You can have a leak which will require another surgery, or twisted stomach, which will also require another surgery.

There are also the limits that you will have to deal with for the rest of your life.  I am over 2 years out and I still can not eat more than 8 ounces at any 1 sitting.
Not like I try to eat more, because I don't.  I actually have held onto many of the good habits I picked up while i was still in the weight loss stage.  There is also the point that, when you eat too much, you will get sick to your stomach and may even throw up, even YEARS after the operation.  I do not do this often at all, but I will be honest, sometimes, it just happens.

And Alcohol?  Hah, Yes I drink once in awhile still but I metabolize it very differently now.  One drink and sometimes I am blasted.  You have to remember, because of your tiny stomach now, alcohol goes right to your intestine and absorbs into your bloodstream super quick!

There are also things that I just can not eat anymore.  Things that I used to really love to eat.  Some of it just makes me out right sick to my stomach, other things are just too heavy and make me very uncomfortable.  There are just a lot of things that I do not think people think about when offered this way to lose weight.

I think when the idea of this surgery comes into play, everyone that considers it should think about the ramifications of what this will do to them and how it will, most definitely affect the rest of your life because it, no doubt, will affect you.

For me, it gave me a new lease on life.  I am pretty much off all of the medications that I was once on.  The type II Diabetes that I was never able to control is under control now and without any medications.  I can play ball with my dogs, garden, run up and down stairs, walk over 6 miles in one shot and not be out of breath.  I am not crying about what I can't eat anymore or what I used to eat because life has become so much more than food.

Bariatric Surgery was the right decision for me...

Thursday, February 9, 2017

Losing Weight After 50

I stopped losing weight after about the a year/ year and a half after my surgery.  I believe that's pretty common place with surgeries like this.  It's estimated that most people do lose about 70% of their excess weight during the first year or so after the surgery.

The surgeon did say that I would not lose all of the weight I wanted and would have to work at the remainder.  I just never really realized how hard that would be.   I also believe that my age, menopause and a history of over dieting doesnt help my situation any.

When you are younger, lets say under 30, it's really easy to lose weight as long as you eat right, get some exercise and pay attention to what you are putting in your mouth.  After 30 and into your 40s, your body begins to change.  Your hormones change and that does affect the way you lose weight.  If you are overweight in your 30's and 40's most of the time you start to acquire problems like diabetes, high blood pressure and cholesterol.

Diabetes is a bitch.  Not only do the meds make it hard to lose weight but the fact that your body is not metabolizing the sugar in your blood correctly makes it even harder to lose any weight let alone enough to actually make a difference in your diabetes.  It is literally a vicious circle.  And along with Diabetes, you get a host of other rotten little problems that go along with it, restless sleep, pins and needles in your legs and feet, mood swings...Oh it's just wonderful!

I digress...

I assumed that once I lost the weight, It would never come back.  Boy was I wrong, not only did I never get to the weight that I really wanted to be but I gained back about 20lbs!

And now, I am back to my struggling to lose an ounce!  However, I do have one thing that I did not have before and that is my 8oz stomach.  I currently limit myself to about 1000 calories a day.  As I was originally losing the weight I had no more than 1200 calories a day.  I dropped my intake down to 1000 and very low carb, low fat and I am still having problems losing any weight.

That's when it dawned on me.  Im old!  HaHa No Seriously, It's my age and the breakdown in hormones, one specifically called Cortisol, that seem to diminish was we age and is especially true for women that are in menopause.

I have been doing some reading and I read that DHEA can deplete as we go into menopause and we can get what is called Adrenal Imbalance, which is one of the reasons it's so very hard to lose any weight.  I think I'm going to try it.  They sell it over the counter but there is science that backs up its claims.

At this point I'm running out of options, all I want to lose is the damn 20 pounds I gained back!

Ill let you know how this turns out...right now I am hopeful! 😁

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

How We are all Connected

I love food blogs.  Yup I said it.  And I really love to cook too.  But since I got this tiny new stomach, I try to eat less crappy stuff.  So I search the internet for decent food blogs.  One day I will give you a list of the ones I found and have actually made some of the recipes I have found.  But today is about just one of those blogs and the couple that run it and how the heck I feel like I became friends with them and inevitably grieve with them.

I don't know about you but as much as I don't like people, I also like to connect to people.  Well some people not all people.  And just as the kitchen used to be the main meeting place in all homes, the internet kitchen, or food blogs seem to have taken that spot.  I had found this blog called Pinch of Yum a few years back and really loved the recipes and the writing style of the Author.  Her name is Lindsay and her husband's name is Bjork and she even got this cute little adopted pup whose name is Sage.  Through her posts, mostly of recipes but sometimes of her life, I feel like I got to know these people and they seemed pretty cool.  Like I would love to have them as actual neighbors and all.

Anyway, so, I follow this blog and get updates on new recipes and all, when sometime during the second half of last year Lindsay announces she was pregnant. (you can read about it here - Baby News )  Now I am totally not into baby blogs or mommy blogs, I get that everyone thinks their kids are the cutest and coolest and smartest...I don't have kids so I guess I just don't get it.  But I was really very happy for them.  I suppose that's what all young couples want and by this point, and feeling like I "knew" them, I thought they would make really good parents.

Time went on, I still got my recipe updates, once in awhile she would blog about the progress of the baby and then IT happened.  On Dec 30 at a routine check up, something went wrong 😢 Uh Oh.

So Lindsey gave birth via c-section at like 26 weeks to Afton and unfortunately he passed through this mortal coil the very next day.

I have to say that this was probably one of the saddest stories I have very witnessed on a blog.  While I understand how heart wrenching this was to them they took some time off of the blog to re-assess life.  But I found myself checking the blog every day incase I missed something or just a word to know that they were ok.  Lindsay still writes about what she and Bjork are going though, and it kills me just a little every time I read her new posts.  I will admit, they choke me up every single time.  I would really love to reach out and hug them both, it's just so unfair.

But yet again I digress...

I think that these days with the internet, we are so much more connected to people that we would otherwise never know.   We learn from them and share our own knowledge be it through a blog or facebook or twitter or whatever other social media medium that you may use.  We are smarter and more knowledgeable because of the ability to be able to see into new places and connect with new people.  But are we open minded enough to accept the information that we seek, are we smart enough to know the difference between truth and fabrication?  Can we open our minds to new things and accept people for who and what they are without judgement or prejudice?   I know that I can...

Be good to each other because in the end, we really are all connected...

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

A History of Weight Gain

I have always had a weight problem.  I grew up in a time when your parents told you to eat everything on your plate, even if you didn't like it.

As a child I sought my parents approval, and always did what I was told.  I remember plenty of times, when my sister would have to sit at that kitchen table for hours because she didn't like what was being served and therefore refused to eat it.  I also remember our family dog, sitting right under her at the table.  Im sure our dog got her fill of my sisters dinner often!  In return, my sister didn't have the same problems that I did with weight.

I was a pudgy kid and grew into a pudgy adolescent, than just a fat teenager.  I went to lean line, weight watchers, a diet doctor, I would lose weight, sometimes substantial weight and then regain it as soon as I stopped going.  It wasn't like I was sedentary, I would go outside, we owned a pool and played running bases in the summer time.  I walked to school and back. It wasn't like I was not getting any exercise at all.  But the weight just piled on.

As I entered my late teens, early twenties, I would gain and lose yearly, other wise known as yo-yo dieting.   I was about 180 to 200 lbs when Jenny Craig and Nutrisystem came around, and of course, I had to try and again I lost about 80lbs and picked up some good habits that I still have today but,  I drank too much alcohol and other things (I'll just leave it at that) By the time I was 30 I was about 220 - 230 lbs.

Atkins was big back in those days, so I tried that, and I lost about 60lbs.  but within a couple of years I gained it all back plus some.  But I believe by this time in my life the damage was already done.  Decades of Yo-Yo dieting began to take its toll.  It was getting harder and harder to lose weight and the more I tried and failed, the more I would eat.

By the time I hit 40, I had uncontrolled diabetes II, multiple issues with my metabolism and overall health and I was about 260 lbs.  It was getting harder to do every day activities, just walking was a strain.  I quit smoking when I was 42, and as much as I am very happy I did that, I gained more weight.  I was taking about 5 different medications a day plus and enormous amount of insulin, which never really controlled my blood sugar levels.  The diabetes did not help with losing any weight, I just kept packing it on.  It was becoming a vicious circle.

I was about 45 when Bariatric Surgery was becoming the way to go to lose weight.  There were lots of great success stories, there were also some pretty messed up horror stories.  Since the insurance that I had through my work did not cover the bariatric surgery, even if it was medically necessary, I could only wait and pray that one day it would.

In the mean time, someone in my office did have the surgery.  I watched him shrink almost daily.  I was so happy for him but in the same respect, I was sad for myself.  My weight and health problems were spiraling out of control, I was probably close to 300lbs in my mid 40's.  My health was deteriorating rapidly and I was spending a fortune on meds and doctors every year.

Then, my work changed insurance companies, I was 47 at the time and about 320lbs.  In April of 2014, I made my first appointment with the surgeon.  I spent a small fortune on copays and testing through that summer, and my surgery was put off once by the stupid pulmonologist, but on 9/2/2014. I did what I never thought I would do.  I had my stomach removed.  And now, I have an 8 oz tube inside me.   The day I went in for the surgery, I was 353lbs.

Over the first year after my surgery, I lost a total of 130.  But since I stopped losing weight by way of the surgery.  It has been so incredibly hard to lose anymore weight and to keep off what I did lose.  But I believe that now a lot of the problems I am having are because of my age.  Which will bring me to my next post in this series about losing weight over 50.

It's been a hell of a ride, but I would say it was well worth every single step of it. Even with the problems that I experience now, I'm ok with that.  I can walk 5 miles and not be winded after 50 feet, I am off of almost all of the medications I was taking.  I have to still take the thyroid and cholesterol meds, and my medical bills are almost non existent, which is great but kinda sucks because I used to be able to write them off my taxes...

I am very happy with the decision I made. If anyone were to ask me if I would do it again.


Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Serial, Cereal...

I have an obsession with Serial Killers.  Um no I'm not a groupie, I don't want to marry one or have some kind of relationship with one.  I am more interested in the psychological aspects and motivation of them.

I will define what I believe is a serial killer is.

To me, a serial killer is a person or people (2) who:
1. Kills at least 3 people at different times or places.
2. Has a specific calling tag, meaning they do something specific to each of their victims, placement, killing method, posing.                      
3. Always takes a trophy, could be anything from a locket of hair, peice of clothing or jewelry or even picture.
4. Has a preferential type of person they hunt. ie; prostitutes, blonds, young, drug addicts.  Doesn't need to be the same race or gender.
5. Has a sexual component even if they do not rape.
6. Will never stop because this is what they love, some how it gives them a kind of satisfaction or release.  They may have a cooling down period or time off as something may gain more importance in their lives but they will not stop till they are dead or jailed.

In the 1970's the FBI came out with the serial killer triad, meaning at that time they believed that a serial killer could be predetermined when a person exhibited these three specific traits.  The traits were; arson, late childhood bed wetting and abuse to animals.  Also in the 1970's the phrase Serial Killer was born most likely referring to the Son of Sam.  Eventually the FBI realized that the triad did not accurately depict the vast array of whom would become serial and who would not.

Serial killers have been around for as long as humans have inhabited the earth. Right now there is about 53 active serials in the USA alone, the number is probably closer to 200 world wide.  Many of them are never caught because they are sociopaths and can blend into mainstream society easily.

A serial killer can be anyone.  The do not look any different than your quiet neighbor or the guy that sits in the cubicle next to you at work.  They are expert actors in order to be able to gain trust and pretend companionship.   They are products of their biological, social and environmental factors.  Nature vs Nurture? I believe that most likely what makes a serial killer is no doubt Nature.

Just like my cats are serial killers, these people were born with the innate instinct to hunt, capture and torture their victims for no other reason than to satisfy their own urges.  Killing is what gets them motivated, it sets off the bells and whistles.  While normal people are repulsed by their acts, Serials want to relive their acts over and over.

Normal people feel compassion and empathy, some would say that Serials do not posses a soul for they usually do not have any sympathy for their victims.  I believe that people are born serial and it usually will take either a traumatic event or systematic abuse to trigger the person to actually acting on their impulses.

All Serials evolve.  They may start out small, maybe peeping or B&E's, stealing or drug dealing.  Usually their first kill may be a family pet or another animal, which gives them the bravery to advance.  Which is another reason I have deep seating rage for people that abuse animals...but I digress (This will be another post one of these days)

I believe that there are people with serial killer tendencies all around us in our everyday lives.  We just don't know it because they look so normal...but have no doubt, they are anything BUT normal.

So keep your eyes and ears open, you never know who is sitting next to you at work, on the bus, train, restaurant...

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Happy 100th!

Celebrating my 100th Post today!

Yeah me!

So this blog started out as my private way to vent about stupid things going on in current events, my life or things that just pissed me off.

It turned into partially the Journaling of my Lifelong battle with weight and what I had to go through to get bariatric surgery.  What the outcome and subsequent dilemmas that I currently have are.  Its also about understanding what Food Addiction actually is and how it affects people.   I think a lot of the time when people who do not have weight issues look at people that do have weight issues they see lazy unhealthy people but that honestly couldn't be farther from the truth.  Food addiction is definitely a true addiction probably more so here in the Great US of A more than any place in the world.

Our Country is decadent, as are our people.  We are told from the time we are toddlers to eat what's on your plate.  Kids are starving in other countries.   We are stuffed full of preservatives and high fructose corn syrup in just about everything we eat.  We have huge buffets of carb laden, machine belt processed foods that you can eat as much as you want for a very small price.  We are taught that if you are bored, eat something, if you are sad, eat something. Vegetables are way too expensive but Mcdonald's has a dollar menu.  The real question is, How anyone in the country DOESN'T HAVE A FOOD ADDICTION?

I also post about my political views, I'm sure if you are reading this post you know all too well how I really feel.  Sometimes I talk about other really inate things that don't mean nothing about nothing.

But through it all, you keep coming back to read whatever wackiness I have going on in my life at the moment, even when I take a few months off, when I come back, You are there with me.

So whoever is out there reading this blog, for whatever reason, Thank you.  As my numbers now climbed to over 14,000 views, I just want to say Thank you for coming back all the time.

I really do appreciate it.


Friday, January 13, 2017

The Truth about Bariatric Surgery

In other words, what all the doctors and your surgical team never tell you.

I am about 2 and a half years out of surgery, I was told when I started this journey that I would initially lose about 70% of the excess weight.  For the most part that is very true.

After surgery the pounds do just drop off, it's actually quite amazing. Especially for people that have an actual hard time losing any weight at all.  Usually it's harder to lose weight as you age along with years of yo-yo dieting a person's metabolism just starts to give up on you.  As for women who hit premenapause and post menapause, it's even harder to lose any weight.

But as with everything that we know of this world, the honeymoon always comes to an end.  Sometimes the end is wonderful, other times, it makes you feel like you are back in the same old boat but more pissed off.

I think that it's really important for people who are considering this operation, specifically the gastric sleeve, like I had, understand how this operation will affect the rest of your life.  This really isn't a temporary thing, this is it, for the rest of your life.

I was very lucky to not have any bad side effects to this procedure, however the risks are and can be real, including your stomach staples coming undone, or your stomach twisting.  After all, your stomach just went from being a pouch to a tube.   Its also very important to DO EXACTLY WHAT YOUR SURGEON TELLS YOU.  If you don't, the chances of you being sorry, are very high!

Some of the things that I have experienced since I had this operations are:

  1.  I stopped losing weight a little over a year out from surgery.  I think it was about 14 or 15 months out. I did, indeed lose about 70% of my excess weight.  
  2. The older you are, especially if you are a woman, the harder it is to lose the other 30% and it's usually a struggle to keep what you did lose off.
  3. Expect to gain at least 20 lbs back from your lowest weight.
  4. Let's face truths here, You do not eat right, that's what got you to the point where you needed this operation.  Unless you make drastic changes in the way you eat, YOU WILL gain weight back.  
  5. If you eat too much food, you will throw up.  If you are a week out of surgery or 5 years out of surgery, if you eat too much it will make you sick.  
  6. If you are throwing up, you probably ate too much.  Try to drink some water to get it through your tube of a stomach.
  7. Some foods you will never be able to eat again because they will make you feel sick or be too heavy for your stomach tube. 
  8. If you eat too much sugar, you will dump.
  9. You will never be able to eat more than 8oz of food at one time, a lot less when you first have it done.  I think I was at 3 or 4 oz when I first had my surgery, now I'm at about 6 to 8oz. 
  10. Your farts really stink, and seriously, I'm not trying to be funny here.  They. Really. Stink.
  11. Constipation is a huge problem, make sure you get plenty of fiber, I live on fiber gummies.  
  12. Your nails will get weak and you may initially lose some hair, make sure you take biotin and keep them polished!
  13. You need the multivitamin, so don't forget them.  
  14. You need to exercise, even if it's just walking all the time.  Monitor yourself, download an app to your cell phone there are tons of free ones out there.  Do whatever you can to get your steps in (10,000 a day!)
  15. Soda, Bread, Rice, Pasta = BAD, BAD, BAD & BAD everything in moderation now, remember you don't want to make yourself throw up, do you?
  16. Protein First, Always!
  17.  Online support groups are crap.  If you need information, ask your doctor not some wanna be know it all!
  18. You won't really be hungry but head hunger or boredom are real problems to overcome.  
  19. Expect to come off some, if not all, of the meds you were taking before.  Unless of course they weren't for a weight related problem to begin with. 
  20.  If you are sad because you can't eat a whole pizza or drink soda anymore, try getting a life, no one wants to hear your stupid poor me attitude.  

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Predictions for 2017

So here it is 2017, and here are my predictions for this year.

1.  Within the 1st year of Trumps presidency, something really bad is going to happen which he will insist that he gets extraordinary powers for.

2.  Can you say coup d'é·tat?

3.  Something bad is going to happen in the middle east and Israel is going to be involved.

4. The Trump presidency will be rife with controversy.

5. There will be more severe weather patterns this year.  Last year was the hottest year recorded, this year it will be worse.  There will also be flooding and dry spots in unusual places. 

6. Terror Attacks will increase inside the United States, the majority of the perpetrators will be United States born.  

7. All americans will have to sign up for a twitter account so they can see the national address...

8.  Obamacare will not be repealed....yet...

9. The price of gas will begin to rise steadily again...

10. Humanity and compassion will be in short supply, probably more than it has been in decades...

Friday, January 6, 2017

2016 Year in Review

Wow what a year 2016 was!

While I did fall short on some of my predictions from last year.  I also hit the nail on the head with others.  Am I psychic? Um no, but I am insightful.

If you need to remember what my predictions were, Here is the link.

2016 Predictions

Now let's review:

1. Got that one right, lots of earthquakes and flooding last year...because, you know there is no global warming, climate change or whatever horse shit thing that want to call it now...

2. Severe weather patterns I said?  hmmm it was the hottest year on record, but again I digress...

3. and 4. China's economic collapse.  It hasn't happened yet, but I know it's coming.

5. Gas prices, I was half right, they did drop to a 15 year low but they did not rebound until the last quarter of the year.

6. Presidential Race was indeed Trump vs Hillary, unfortunately I screwed the pooch on who won...

7. Terror Attacks, Hit that nail on the head

8. Homegrown Terror attacks, Hit that nail on the head too!

9. Refugee Crisis problems, Got that one right too!

10. Steve Avery has not been granted a new trial yet, but I still think that will happen.

So out of my 10 predictions, if given half points for 5 and 6, I was accurate on 6 of the 10...

Stay tuned for my 2017 predictions...