Wednesday, June 3, 2020

I Cant Breathe



Children playing in a park
Twilight skies and moonlight mist
Tough little guy never had a chance
I can’t breathe
Suffocating, always hating
Things aren’t the way they are supposed to be.
Waiting, waiting, waiting for the other shoe to drop.
Feared by many, loved by some
He’s getting away, does he have a gun?
I can’t breathe
Lucy, Lucy against the law
Can’t fight 5 cops, you have to fall
Making money because there is no work
A life was taken on the walk
I can't breathe
Always waiting out of sight
Locked down, knocked down, rollover on the ground
Taking a knee is blasphemy
Especially on someones neck
I can't breathe.


I can't say that I know how it feels to be a person of color in this country today, to have to live with the fear of injustice that they have to deal with on a daily basis.  I think that we take for granted that everything is fair when in reality it's not.  

Watching this last video of the death of George Floyd, knowing I was watching someone die, when it was completely unnecessary, almost made me throw up.  Yes, I did cry. Will this be the last video of a person of color being killed?  I really hope so.  I don't think I can watch another one.

I can not group all police in with the one in this video, there are bad people in every profession, bad lawyers, bad surgeons, bad doctors, bad corp exec (Enron, remember that?) I think many, many police were just as outraged with watching that video.  Many came out against it in the days that followed.  I think we all need to remember that police are people too, they are doing a job and they are told what to do just like anyone else.  And yes, we need them and always will.

The real people that need to be held accountable are our politicians that have let this kind of behavior go unpunished.  I'm not talking about the federal government, this is all state and town.  Your local legislators are the ones that allow bad cops to get 18 citations for undue force and remain on the job. You know everyone makes mistakes but when you have to be constantly "spoken to" about your behavior, maybe they should just fire you?  Most local police departments answer to the Mayor of your town.

This is why it's so very important to VOTE. Don't just show up for the presidential election every 4 years, vote every year.  There are elections every year and you should show up and be counted.  Mostly these elections on a yearly basis are for your local and state leaders.  These are the people that affect your daily life.  Ask them questions, reach out to them, find out where they stand on the issues that are most important to you!  If you really want to be heard...Stand up and VOTE!

Anyway, I hope the United States finds peace soon. Maybe there is a reason why all these trials have been happening in the year 2020?  I'm probably wrong...but its something to think about. 😁

Tuesday, April 21, 2020

Slaves to the establishment

Today I panicked and I cried. Its been 1 month and I am still waiting to get unemployment. Never mind the supplemental 600 from the government, I really don't care about that, I just want what is due to me now, what I have worked for and paid into my entire life. I have NO cash flow at all right now, which is the 1st time in over 25 years.

This is the #1 reason people are getting irritated and want things to open up, marching on statehouses and screaming at the top of their lungs. It's not that they are getting bored being at home, but because they are not getting what this government has told them they would get in a time of need. You can not live without some kind of cash flow. If you work your entire life and can not depend on this system that we are forced to pay into, then what can we trust?

The entire government has failed the people of this country on every single level. This is not a partisan statement, this is ALL governing bodies, all politicians. From the very TOP to the very BOTTOM. The only good I have really seen is from everyday people helping their neighbors and those in need.
While I completely understand the threat this unknown disease causes, there is something way more insidious that will kill us all if something isn't done soon, its called hopelessness and poverty. Once we reach that level, we will be their slaves.

Thursday, April 16, 2020

Reflections on a Month of Lock-down

Next week will be one month of this "stay at home" order for the pandemic.  Wednesday to be exact.  While I'm not opposed to staying at home, I am opposed to losing a job, being bored, worrying as to when this will all end, if I'm going to get sick because sometimes I have no choice but to go out and last but not least, dealing with the shitty system that is unemployment insurance.

While the suggestions of "closing businesses" and "staying at home" did begin around the middle of March but with the closing of all schools soon after the mandatory closures came, and the job loss.

Today they said it was 22 million people lost jobs, either furloughed or laid off.  Me being one of them.  I have been waiting for a month on the 22nd for my UI claim to come out of pending.  After I wrote to my reps & senator, I did get some phone calls but all anyone can say is, you just have to wait.  Waiting isn't too bad yet for me, I've been preparing for this, or worst to happen for a while now.  But many people were not prepared for this to happen.  I feel for them.  Hopefully, the Trump Bucks will be here soon. 

Many people are clamoring for the government to allow businesses to open back up.  I do understand what they are asking and truth be told, who and what was shut down was so arbitrarily assigned that it does leave me scratching my head.  However, I don't think they should do anything just yet.  They need to make a plan on opening businesses little by little until everything is open.  I think if they just flipped the switch, it could prove really really bad.

So now it's just a waiting game.  After this is over, they say things will never be the same.  But I don't really know about that.  Americans have very short memories.  They said that things wouldn't be the same after 911 either, but within a year, they were right back to where they were before.  Sure they made some new laws and agencies but the people, nope, they went right back to ignoring everything around them.  Right back to the "in your face" attitude that got us to where we were on that faithful day. 

The same will be true for this pandemic.  We already have the deniers that think this is the flu because they are too wrapped up in Facebook memes to actually look up the information.  That's why they want to march on Harrisburg because they really don't think this any big deal.   The truth is out there, you have to actively go look for it though. 

This is a threat to humanity and this country.  Whether or not we are doing what should/could be done is beyond me, but I do know this, if we did nothing, this would have been far worst.  Last I looked there were over 25000 people dead from this since March 1st, that's 6 weeks, that's almost 4200 people a week.  That's a lot of people.  Compared to the 2017-2018 flu season (one of the worst on record) 2175 people were dying a week.  It's not the flu no matter how much people say it is doesn't make it true. 

Anyway, I digress, we are still in a world of shit and it doesn't look like the light will be out for at least a few more weeks.  Hopefully, my Unemployment will come through by then.

Be safe & stay at home!

Saturday, April 4, 2020

Notes on surviving a pandemic

A few observations and tips on surviving a global pandemic.


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  1. Be prepared BEFORE the shit hits the fan!
  2. Don't watch the news 24/7, it will drive you mad.
  3. Don't get your information off of Facebook, it will drive you mad.
  4. Don't hoard, everyone is in the same boat as you.
  5. Take what you need and leave the rest for someone else (TWD)
  6. Everyone is scared, whether they admit it or not so don't be a jerk.
  7. Don't tell people who are still working, risking their lives every day, so you can hoard toilet paper, that they are lucky they are still working.  
  8. If you are still working, don't brag about it, people are hurting and feel bad enough with the uncertain future.
  9. Don't be rude, there is really no need for an attitude.
  10. Don't go out if you do not have to.  Yes, we are all bored, deal with it, read a book, start a journal.
  11. If you must go out, go out early and be quick about it.
  12. When you go food shopping, make your selection with your eyes and only touch what you will be buying.
  13. Do NOT fondle the grapes, tomatoes or any fresh fruits or veggies!!! (Thanks to Jeff LOL)
  14. Do not blame the grocery store employees for the empty shelves, if it were not for them still working, you wouldn't have that tasty cake in your hand so STFU.  
  15. Enjoy the time with your family, you made them, now you have to deal with them.
  16. Divorce at this time is NOT an option
  17. Use your imagination to find things to do. 
  18. Clean your attic, garage, spare room.
  19. If you cant afford the tip for your food delivery, get your lazy ass up and go pick it up.  15% minimum tip for delivery!
  20. Do not judge people or berate them because they are wearing masks and gloves.  You don't know what their health situation is. 
I hope you find these tips fun and useful.

Until next time on "as the world goes to shit" I'm signing off now 😁

Tuesday, March 31, 2020

The Last Day of March 2020


Its the last day of March 2020.
I'm sure these days and months will go down in the history books.  They say that history is written by the victor.  But with this virus, I don't think anyone will win.  

I don't mind staying inside for the most part.  Its been raining a lot lately, maybe its God crying for us.  Or maybe its mother nature trying to drown the fleas we have become.  

It was around the middle of March when they started closing everything down.  They just extended the "stay at home" orders till the end of April.  Still, some people are not taking this seriously.  

Hopefully, when this is over, things will change in this country.  I doubt it, but I can hope.  

Stay safe - Stay healthy

Friday, March 27, 2020

Covid-19 Day 7


Today is day 7 of "flattening the curve" and "Social distancing" for me anyway.  For others, it started about a week before I did.

It's really not that bad staying away from people.  Maybe I'm more skilled at it than some people, truth is, people annoy me and so I stay away from them for the most part anyway.  In the last 7 days, I have been out in public 2 times.  I have lots of things to do to take up my time.  I have a bunch of hobbies that I have neglected for a long while, so while I'm waiting for this to end, I pass my days creating or looking for a job for when this is over.

The news is more than I can deal with watching the same stories over and over.  I can't dwell on it constantly.  Although they are supposed to be voting on a huge stimulus bill today, which I hope passes, you know there is always some moron in the batch just waiting to fuck things up.

At first, there were a lot of crappy stories coming out of people fighting mostly for toilet paper or chicken parts.  That all seems to have calmed down for the most part.  People are still hoarding food and so most of the stores have to put signs on the shelves that limit the amount you can buy.  I have never been a hoarder, but I have always stocked up on stuff when it was on sale.  I didn't really need to run out and spend all my money on toilet paper.  Maybe people will learn from this, most likely not.

Anyway, day 7 and we are doing fine.  I will probably have to go out early next week to get stuff for my doggie, so until that time I will do what I can to flatten this curve and pray for man and womankind.


Monday, March 23, 2020

Covid-19 The best & The worst - Part 1

So here I am, day one of self quarantining.  As of Friday, I lost my job.  NY, NJ, and PA are all basically closed to all non-essential businesses and the future is looking very sketchy.  This is probably going to be a very long post.

I am cautiously worried about this whole situation.  Maybe I watch & read too many apocalyptical shows and books.  But this is pretty much how they all begin.  An alien virus starts, or biological warfare, in china,  the mid-east, the rain forest, or a train or an arena,  it grows, some moron pokes it with a stick and they get infected, brings it back to the civilized world and then before you know it, we have a pandemic and people are rising from the dead. 

As of today, March 23rd, 2020, two weeks ago the schools in PA shut down and the news has been harping on this virus non-stop.  Not that I don't think they should report the truth, but by continuously fear-mongering, I think they have made it worst.  Most people are not that intelligent and when you mix low IQs with fear, you have an explosive cocktail.  Which is partially what we are seeing now.  Facebook and the constant misinformation that's passed there, doesn't help.  With everyone pretty much homebound, there has been a surge in the stupidity of Facebook posts lately.

About a week ago right after PA closed all the schools, it spun people into panic shopping.  People were fighting over rolls of toilet paper and chicken.  I have never seen the food stores so empty of everything. (except anything healthy, LOL)  It makes me very irritated to see that people became fever pitch fearful overnight.  That's not saying that I  think people shouldn't heed the warnings, it's better to be cautious than indifferent.  But to go to a food store, market or any place to get food like everyone else does and to act so badly publicly, thinking only about yourself, is NOT the way Americans should be acting.  I don't give a fuck what your color, creed or religion is, you do not have a right to act like a fucking moron in public, expect to be publicly shamed for your bad behavior.  It's to the point now where stores have to LIMIT most things so people don't go in and buy whatever is on the shelf.  To me that is just despicable, you should get the virus and do us a favor and take your gene pool out of existence for being a gluttonous pig.  Doing this is very UnAmerican. Take what you need and leave the rest for someone else, That is what Americans should do.  Americans shouldn't have to be told to act like adults, but then again, that's why I say that most are not very bright and become fearful too easily.

But with the really despicable bad behavior, there have been a few things that have choked me up because they are just so kind.  Kindness in the face of uncertainty is what true Americans do.  To give of your time, money or effort when all seems so bleak, that is what true Americans do.  We are kind, compassionate and we do care about our elders, children, and neighbors. 

I have seen people pooling together to make masks for hospitals and care centers, in their own houses of course.  I have seen people handing out supplies to older people who are too frail to rumble with the assholes in the supermarkets, they are also the most vulnerable.  I have also seen people offering to help people who can't help themselves by running errands.  There is still good, kindness and empathy in this world and we need to see and focus on that. 

Remember to:
1. wash your hands frequently
2. practice social distancing
3. Call your doctor or teledoctor if you feel you have the 3 symptoms - don't post online - your doctor will tell you what to do. 
4. Don't freak out if they don't think you should be tested.
5. Be kind to people, everyone is scared.
6. We are all in this together.

Be Safe, Be Well




Friday, January 24, 2020

The Choices We Make



Sometimes we make bad choices.  That's just a part of life.  Sometimes we make spot on choices which elevate our self esteem.  Sometimes we don't really think through how the consequences of our choices or actions will effect those around out.  Most times we have to live with the choices we make and other times the choices we make turn out to be the best decisions of our lives.

Don't be too hard on yourself about the choices you make.  We learn about ourselves by these choices and become stronger for them.