Friday, December 30, 2016

Good Bye 2016

This year, by far, has been one of the most interesting years that I have ever lived through.  Being that it was my 50th year on this planet is only part of the strange, interesting, sometimes heartbreaking, sometimes insane year that was 2016.

One of the things that struck me about 2016 was all the celebrity deaths, I mean right down to today, the 29th of December!  This year in just the music industry alone we lost; Glenn Frey, David Bowie, George Michael, Vanity, Paul Kantner, Maurice White, Keith Emerson, Frank Sinatra Jr, Merle Haggard, Prince, Nick Menza, Christina Grimmie (hay no hating she was really popular and a great person!) Matt Roberts, Leonard Cohen.  I know there was many more that Im probably forgetting.

What about news and movie actors and actresses, we lost Debbie Reynolds, Carrie Fisher, Ricky Harris, Zsa Zsa Gabor, Alan Thicke, Ron Glass, Florence Henderson, Robert Vaughn, Tommy Ford, Curtis Hanson, Jon Polito, Gene Wilder, Steven Hill, John Mc Laughlin, Barry Jenner, David Huddleson, Garry Marshall, Michael cimino, Alan Young, Morley Safer, Doris Roberts, Patty Duke, Garry Shandling, Alan Rickman, Pat Harrington Jr, Abe Vigoda.

Then there were the Literary and Political, people we lost;  Antonin Scalia, Harper Lee, George Kennedy, Pat Conroy, Nancy Reagan, Rob Ford, Jim Harrison, Elie Wiesel, Mark Takai, Rev. Tim LaHaye, Phyllis Schlafly, Greta Zimmer Friedman, Edward Albee, W.R. Winsella, Shimon Perez, King Bhumibol Adulyadej, Janet Reno, Gwen Ifill, Fidel Castro,  E.R Braithwaite, Richard Adams.

And wait there is more!!!  Cant forget Sports and the Sciences; Craig Sager, John Glenn, Arnold Palmer, Jose Fernandez, Pat Summitt, Buddy Ryan, Gordie Howe, Mohammad Ali, Chyna, Joe Garagiola, Bob Ebeling, Lee Reherman, Tony Burton, Edgar Mitchell...

Oh my lawd, the list just keeps going on, its like 2016 wiped out the fucking 1980's!!!  WTF!

Well I was going to go somewhere else with this post but Fuck it, I'm depressed now...

Good Riddance 2016...

Oh yea....One more death, technically it happened in 2016

But doesnt take place till 2017...

The Death of the USA as we know it....

Saturday, December 24, 2016

Merry Christmas!

To You and Yours
A Very Happy...

And Merry Christmas to All

Tuesday, December 20, 2016

A Life Worth Living

M is for Mortality....

I got some news today that I wasn't expecting to hear.  A friend, who I grew up with and was pretty close to for a while during my 20's, had some dramatic medical problems and is on life support.  She is a few years younger than me, about my sisters age, which makes this even harder.

I had, in the past, actively searched for her via facebook and google.  I have found long lost friends that way in the past, besides who doesnt use facebook these days?  Isn't is like 8 out of 10 people have a facebook page? I had hoped to reconnect with her in some way over a social network as I have with so many of my childhood and young adulthood friends.  I thought eventually she would turn up, but she never did, until I got the news of her condition today.

Once again I am smacked in the face with my own mortality.

I moved away from my old stomping grounds many years ago.  Partially because of my own demons but also because I had to move on with my life.  I knew my demons would haunt me forever if I did not separate myself from the place I loved and called home.  As much as I loved, and still love the people who I grew up with and to this day consider them family no matter how near or far I am, I had to make that part of my life ancient history, and so that's what I did.

So life goes on.  I live each day as it comes, work way too much, probably don't have as much fun as I should have once in awhile.  Maybe just let my hair down a little on occasion.  I try to do good by the people I meet, I donate to charities. I show kindness to people and animals less fortunate than me or mine.  And I know eventually, I too will shrug off this mortal coil.

But the thing that always bothers me is; how will I be remembered when I am gone?  Have I done enough to balance whatever bad I have done in my life?  Will people remember me for what I was or from what I have become?

I do not believe in God, or heaven or hell but I do believe in the legacy that we, as humans, leave behind.  I believe that the things that people remember and say about us when we are gone is what has made your life one of substance and meaning.

So when I do shrug off this mortal coil and make my peace with the universe, what is it that people will say about me?

Thursday, December 8, 2016

Open Letter The Democratic Party

Dear Democratic Party,

You really screwed the pooch on this one!

For a long time, with the infiltration of the crazy tea-baggers, I had thought it would be the Republican party that implodes on itself.

In the words of our President Elect...WRONG!!

WTF were you thinking?  You had a ROCK STAR in Bernie Sanders and you told him to go sit down!

I am so very disappointed in you.  While I have flipped back and forth between both parties for most of my adult life, finally settling on Independent, only to find out I couldn't vote in the primaries, I came back to the Democratic party. Here I thought we had an understanding, that we believed in mostly the same things, i.e: a hand up, peace not war, live and let live, working class families, equality for everyone....

I would have never in a million years, thought you would turn on us like this.
You had this in the bag, you had your shining candidate, the people were screaming at you and YOU ignored us!

You have looked us, the people that believed in you over for big money endorsements.  You are no better than a sports figure selling their souls for a puma or nike endorsement.  You Suck!

A word of advice, don't listen to polls!  Everyone lies, you should already know this but you let your guard down when you thought you had it in the bag.

I really think you need to go back to the drawing table and reinvent yourself. Seriously, you have two years to dig your heels in, pull your big boy pants up and decide what you are going to do to fix this giant fucking mess that is going to be the Trump presidency.

I'm sorry but I have completely lost my faith in the party that was for the working class people.  Where did you lose your way?  Where are the passionate people that fought for civil rights and equality?  Have they all been swallowed by wall street riches and the broken promises of riches beyond your wildest dreams?

You,Democratic Party, have really let us down.  I hope you have learned just a little from this giant disaster you created.

Thursday, November 24, 2016

Happy Thanksgiving

There are many things to be said about the great American tradition of Thanksgiving.  It has always been my one of my two favorite Holidays.

Aside from spending time with family and friends, for me, it's also a time of reflection and to be thankful for what I have not only as a family or individual but also as a nation.

Thanksgiving marks the beginning of the Holiday Season. While I am not a religious person, I do have values and morals and see the world as a wonderful, if not very unusual place to live in.  People are so very interesting.

I feel that we should try to better ourselves and try to understand people that don't always agree with us without being vile or abusive. I feel we should give as much as we can to charity and help people up, not kick them when they are down.   I believe that if you do the right thing, it will come back to you as it always has for me.

I consider myself lucky in life.

And for that, I am truly grateful.

Friday, November 18, 2016

Then They Came For Me

First they came for the Socialists, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Socialist.
Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Trade Unionist.
Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Jew.
Then they came for me—and there was no one left to speak for me.
-- Martin Niemöller (1892–1984)

Friday, November 11, 2016

Thank YOU Veterans Day

Thank you Veterans - for all you do for this Great Country of Ours

No matter how bad you think things are here...

There is always somewhere else that is worst...

Thank you to our Brave men and women of our Armed Forces

For keeping us Safe!

And for all those who Gave all.

Thank you.  

Thursday, November 10, 2016

Something to Look Forward To

The Election is over.

I am sad to say that it did not turn out the way that I had thought and hoped it would.  I have some fears, but I hold out Hope.  This was the biggest "FUCK YOU" anti-establishment vote that this Great Country has ever bore witness to.  We are living in history like some of the greatest events in our short 238 years of existence.  Do not kid yourself, this is BIG!

I was never a hard core Hillary supporter and I realized early on that there were so many more people (Bernie), and women, that would have made a better candidate.   While I love the idea of a woman President, I was not thrilled with Hillary, although I did come to like her more than I did when she was first nominated.  She is one tough cookie and no one can ever take that away from her.

I have worried what this country will be like with Mr. Trump as President.  While others seem to think he is the right one to govern this great nation of ours, I have had my doubts.  I feel as though I am living in a Jerry Springer episode.  But I am holding out hope.

As much as I have said in the past that we, as a nation, need to have a 3rd viable party, The Donald was not what I was talking about or what I envisioned.  But I guess that the general consensus is that, you get what you get, not what you want.  I just hope that after the 1st 100 days, I am proven wrong on all the fears that I have.  I want to be wrong, I really want to be wrong.

I have often been taken back by the sheer unbridled hatred that some of Trumps Supporters have shown towards Hillary and  President Obama.  Saying things and doing things that, quite frankly, I don't know how they sleep at night with a clear conscience.  Now I hear how upset some are over the Protests that are going on against Mr. Trump.  Kettle meet Pot...Do you really think it would have been different if the Donald lost? Don't you think for a second that people would have rallied proclaiming the Elections are fixed?

I suppose these are the times when we need hold onto hope.  I can imagine what our forefathers must have gone through when this great experiment didn't turn out the way they thought it should.  They always held onto the hope for a better, more brighter future. Even in the face of invading forces and a civil war to match no other, there were always some shining moments and then the ones we look back on with shame.  I am hoping that this is not one of those shameful times.

After 234 years of existence, this county is surely divided.  Just look at the vote, 119,176,385 people that voted in this Presidential Election, 59,687,671 voted for Hillary and 59,488,714 voted for Trump.  THE COUNTY IS DIVIDED!  50/50  (btw Hillary won the Popular vote but lost the electoral vote, go figure?)  But I hope that Mr. Trump can find it in his being to be the Uniter that this country really needs right now.  I hold onto hope.

I don't want to be bitter.
I don't want to be a hater, because that emotion is what I find deplorable in some people.  Hate kills and consumes and deteriorates a person's soul.  A person who hates stops listening and becomes lost...

I feel as though the altruistic people that built this nation are shoved to the back burner now and the savages are taking over. (Rambling)  When I read some of the things I see on Facebook, it makes me want to cry.  Don't be a hater, be a catalyst to make this work, prove to the other half, that everything will be ok.  It's ok to love and understand your neighbor even if you didn't vote the same.

As much as there are people that are sore losers, there are also people that are bad winners.  If CHANGE is really what you want to see, start with yourselves.  If UNITY is what you really want, to bring this county together, the time is now and by being boastful and rude, is NOT the way to do that.  Have some compassion and empathy for the other side, for they have ideas and visions of what this country should be also...don't be a hater.

Still, I am holding out Hope.  I hope that Mr Trump and his supporters do the right thing.  I hope that they include all people in their vision for what America should be.  I hope that we all find peace and prosperity in the coming years.  As for myself, I am going to hold onto this hope as I never have before.

On a lighter note, Pot is now legal in 8 States!  I guess that's something to look forward too, right?

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

The Results ARE In

We have a new President of the United States...


It is......Donald Trump

What the Fuck were we thinking?

More on this later, I just don't have the diplomacy in me to talk about this just yet.

Tuesday, November 8, 2016

The Presidential Election

Today is the 57th Presidential Election that this Already Great Country of ours has seen.  While it has been a real FUN ride, I am so glad it is almost over.  I know it's not just myself that feels this way, but millions and millions of people who are just tired of all the Bullshit day after day, night after night, right down to minute after minute.  

Today is Election Day.

If you have an opinion then you should get out and vote.

If you want to be heard, Cast Your Vote

Don't Ever think YOUR Vote Doesn't Count.

Get out today and VOTE!

Monday, October 31, 2016

Happy Halloween

Today is Halloween.

Remember to keep your Pets Safe...

The Raven - By Edgar Allen Poe

Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary, 
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore— 
    While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping, 
As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door. 
“’Tis some visitor,” I muttered, “tapping at my chamber door— 
            Only this and nothing more.” 

    Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December; 
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor. 
    Eagerly I wished the morrow;—vainly I had sought to borrow 
    From my books surcease of sorrow—sorrow for the lost Lenore— 
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore— 
            Nameless here for evermore. 

    And the silken, sad, uncertain rustling of each purple curtain 
Thrilled me—filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before; 
    So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating 
    “’Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door— 
Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door;— 
            This it is and nothing more.” 

    Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer, 
“Sir,” said I, “or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore; 
    But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping, 
    And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door, 
That I scarce was sure I heard you”—here I opened wide the door;— 
            Darkness there and nothing more. 

    Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing, 
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before; 
    But the silence was unbroken, and the stillness gave no token, 
    And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, “Lenore?” 
This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, “Lenore!”— 
            Merely this and nothing more. 

    Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning, 
Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before. 
    “Surely,” said I, “surely that is something at my window lattice; 
      Let me see, then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore— 
Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore;— 
            ’Tis the wind and nothing more!” 

    Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter, 
In there stepped a stately Raven of the saintly days of yore; 
    Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he; 
    But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door— 
Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door— 
            Perched, and sat, and nothing more. 

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling, 
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore, 
“Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,” I said, “art sure no craven, 
Ghastly grim and ancient Raven wandering from the Nightly shore— 
Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night’s Plutonian shore!” 
            Quoth the Raven “Nevermore.” 

    Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly, 
Though its answer little meaning—little relevancy bore; 
    For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being 
    Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door— 
Bird or beast upon the sculptured bust above his chamber door, 
            With such name as “Nevermore.” 

    But the Raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only 
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour. 
    Nothing farther then he uttered—not a feather then he fluttered— 
    Till I scarcely more than muttered “Other friends have flown before— 
On the morrow he will leave me, as my Hopes have flown before.” 
            Then the bird said “Nevermore.” 

    Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken, 
“Doubtless,” said I, “what it utters is its only stock and store 
    Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful Disaster 
    Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore— 
Till the dirges of his Hope that melancholy burden bore 
            Of ‘Never—nevermore’.” 

    But the Raven still beguiling all my fancy into smiling, 
Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird, and bust and door; 
    Then, upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking 
    Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore— 
What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore 
            Meant in croaking “Nevermore.” 

    This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing 
To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom’s core; 
    This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining 
    On the cushion’s velvet lining that the lamp-light gloated o’er, 
But whose velvet-violet lining with the lamp-light gloating o’er, 
            She shall press, ah, nevermore! 

    Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer 
Swung by Seraphim whose foot-falls tinkled on the tufted floor. 
    “Wretch,” I cried, “thy God hath lent thee—by these angels he hath sent thee 
    Respite—respite and nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore; 
Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe and forget this lost Lenore!” 
            Quoth the Raven “Nevermore.” 

    “Prophet!” said I, “thing of evil!—prophet still, if bird or devil!— 
Whether Tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore, 
    Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted— 
    On this home by Horror haunted—tell me truly, I implore— 
Is there—is there balm in Gilead?—tell me—tell me, I implore!” 
            Quoth the Raven “Nevermore.” 

    “Prophet!” said I, “thing of evil!—prophet still, if bird or devil! 
By that Heaven that bends above us—by that God we both adore— 
    Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn, 
    It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels name Lenore— 
Clasp a rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore.” 
            Quoth the Raven “Nevermore.” 

    “Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!” I shrieked, upstarting— 
“Get thee back into the tempest and the Night’s Plutonian shore! 
    Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken! 
    Leave my loneliness unbroken!—quit the bust above my door! 
Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!” 
            Quoth the Raven “Nevermore.” 

    And the Raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting 
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door; 
    And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon’s that is dreaming, 
    And the lamp-light o’er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor; 
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor 
            Shall be lifted—nevermore!

Wednesday, October 26, 2016

I See Dead People...

Sunday, October 23, was the return of my most favorite show in television history, The Walking Dead.  Returning for its 7th season to answer the question, who gets to meet Lucille up close and personal.  

But before I get into that, I wanted to say a few things about the shows fans and people that do not follow the show.  

If you say you are a fan and do not watch it when it originally airs, and have no real good excuse, like hospitalization, death or the like, and you have to dvr it, then you are not a TRUE fan! True fans make sure they are in front of that TV at 8:55pm every Sunday to catch the new episode come hail or high water. In saying that, expect the REAL true fans to be talking about it the next day and expect spoilers! If you don't want spoilers, watch the damn show when it airs! Dont walk around saying, oh don't tell me what happened, or I didn't see it yet! How can you even expect people to be all hush hush for days afterwards with a show that is usually as shocking as this one?  You are not a real fan and are selfish thinking others should not talk about it because you are to lame to watch the show when it airs!...End. Of. Statement.  

People that do not follow the show at all.  Are you serious?  Yea I was just as surprised as you.  At least the ones that don't watch it when they should, watch it eventually.  I think a lot of people get turned off because the show has zombies in it.  But as I have tried to tell non-watchers, it's more than just about killing zombies, it's about the world after the apocalypse.  It's about surviving in the worst of situations, understanding what you, as a human being, are capable of, preserving humanity and building a society again.  It's about the ties that bind us and break us, it's about love and compassion and just trying to get through another day on this wrecked planet.  It's about Life.  

If you think about it, it's kind of about what life is now, without the zombies.  

Anyway, I digress.....

This is the best show I have ever had the pleasure of watching on TV.  I even love the Talking Dead afterwards although I mostly fall asleep after the show, I have to get up early to go to work the next day.  

The season 7 premiere was, hands down, the hardest episode of any series that I have ever seen except for maybe The Red Wedding courtesy of GoT (that's Game of Thrones for you boring TV watchers) .  It's shocking, it's violent, it's stifling, it's gripping and it's compelling to the point I actually was holding my breath for about 45 minutes.  

I kind of knew it was going to be Abraham to get on the wrong side of Lucille, but I never in a million years expected Glenn to get there too and to do it precisely as it was done in the GR was almost too much to watch.  I was actually stunned after I screamed, and I'm pretty sure my neighbors thought my house was broken into or something LOL.  Then the long arduous journey of breaking Rick, I was so uneasy after that episode, I did not fall asleep until way after midnight.  I did make it to work though LOL as many protested they did or were not going to go in!  I made it!

Even though I read the cliffnotes of the GRs, I have an idea of what is going to happen, I just can't wait for the next episode of this show to air.  However I do not think I will be watching that episode again for a very long time.  

Viva La Dead! 

Thursday, October 20, 2016

Election Blues

Oh I have the Election Day Blues!  I can not WAIT for this election to be over.  I am really so incredibly tired of hearing all of the blind Hateful Rants from so many people on social media.  Why can't WE all get along?  Politics that's why!

I have said in the past that I refuse to lose friends over an election. I even posted it on my personal Facebook page that I am no longer engaging in political banter. I have taken the oath of silence (#therealsilentmajority) And while I mean what I say, I am also saying there are always a few assholes in the barrel that will just needle the shit out of you and call you names until you want to explode on them all for the sake of proving they are right, even if there is no sure way to prove so. But I digress and I refuse to stoop to their immature self absorbed hate filled level.  

I will be honest, I was on the fence for quite a while about who to vote for.  Do I want to be an anarchist and Vote Trump in? Or do I want to side with the other side, knowing they are the lesser of two evils?  As much as I feel Trump is a complete idiot and is relatively clueless when it comes to politics, I also feel that Hillary just has so much baggage, I really wish they would have picked Bernie. Or at least someone, when they get into office isn't going to be hung up in trials and tribulations like her husband was.  Mark my words, If Hillary wins this election, within 2 weeks of her taking oath, the lawsuits will be flying!

When you are an independent, it's a hard rope to walk.  It is my experience that if you are not completely gung ho about Trump, then to most supporters, you are against them.  Which is so completely ridiculous.  They berate you because you ask for proof of the ridiculous things they pull off of some crazy right wing conservative website but then when you bring things up that have already been proven truth, they say the media is bias.  I'm already hearing that the election is rigged because his polling numbers are heading into the ground like a lawn dart. There are very few Trump supporters that will actually "talk" to you once they know you are not necessarily on their "team".  

I asked a Trump supporter the other day, what exactly is Conservative?  What is it that you think you stand for.  They told me, in no uncertain terms:

1. For the Constitution to be interpreted the way it was written 
2. Smaller government
3. Self reliance
4. Less government interference.  

Im curious if this is what they all think?  I would ask more but I'm afraid if getting verbally assaulted as if I'M the moron because I happen to be level headed and not as pissed off as they are.  At least this happens on Social Media.  This space right here is MINE and I can say whatever the hell I want...1st amendment Bitches!!!

Anyway, If this is what they all think, wow, just wow, there are so many things wrong and there is such hypocrisy between what they think and what they say.  I am going to take what this, person, said and run with it.

1. The Constitution, everyone should read it.  It took me about 2 hours to read the whole thing.  The people that insist that it should be adhered to it will probably take a few days to read and most likely they will NOT understand it.  Lets just take the 1st amendment, freedom of expression which includes freedom of speech, press, religion and peaceful demonstration and the right to petition the government.  

Trump wants to keep Muslims out of the country.  I understand why, even though I do not agree because I actually WANT the constitution to be enforced! If you want the constitution to be adhered too, then it very clearly states that you can NOT have a religious test to be admitted into this country. Period, end of STATEMENT!  The Constitution says, "Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof..."

I would go into the rest of the things that Trump wants to override on this document even though apparently his followers that want it adhered to don't know or don't care to try to even understand what it is THEY want, but I digress yet again because I do not have the time to go over every single amendment to the Constitution today.  But incase you are interested, here are the cliff notes Amendments of the Constitution

2.  Smaller Government.  Do you have any clue what they even mean when they say that?  Do you think they mean they won't have as many employees? or that instead of 5 secretaries they will have 3? So you don't have to pay benefits and pensions, right?  

WRONG they are talking about getting rid of entire Departments of the Government - Like EPA so that they can get rid of those pesky regulations that do things like, keeping the air and water clean (although with water it seems that even with the regulations this country is in big trouble with its water supply)  or The Department of Agriculture to make sure our food is safe to eat. Recently, I signed up for FDA notices for food recalls, do you know I get no less than 5 recalls a week?  They actually have a weekly round up of the recalls in any specific week.  Food that gets to your grocery store that has e colilisteriasalmonella, mislabeled allergy foods, and this is WITH these safeguards in place, can you imagine what it would be like without them? I don't think you want to.  

3. I love this one, Self Reliance.  I think that this is a PC way to say they don't want to pay for anymore Welfare niggers being lazy and smoking crack.  Its unfortunate that people are holding onto the picture that Ronald Reagan painted in the 80's of a black women with 8 kids driving a caddy toting a giant TV in the back.  Unfortunately it couldn't be farther from the truth.   Its White/Caucasian people that are mostly on some form of welfare in this country which stands to reason since there are still more white people in this country than any other race.  People on food stamps run from the elderly, disabled, veterans, you really want to pull food and help away from these people?  Should we scrap the entire system just because YOU think there MAY be a few people getting over?  I thought we were a country of Compassion?

On the flip side to that, let's talk about Social Security.  The Republicans want to scrap the whole system.  I don't know about you but I have been employed pretty regularly since I was 16 years old.  So right now that's 34 years, I have been paying into the Social Security system.  I want to know that my money is there for me for when I retire.  Yea sure I have a pension at work but you know damn well it isn't going to be enough money to live on once I do retire in another 17 years.  Why scrap a system that works?  They keep saying its going to run out, How?  I get SS taxes taken out of my check every week and so does everyone else in the country.  If they keep their slimy hands off of it and let it do what its supposed to do, There will not BE a problem.  But those greedy pricks want the money for themselves and their own interests.  All I know is that My money better be fucking there when I retire or someone is going to PAY!

4. Less Government Interference.  This one by far is the most hypocritical.  I am assuming that they mean they don't want government interfering in their daily lives?

So that must mean that you are ok with Abortions, Gay Marriage, no Prayer in School, and a host of other so called Liberal or as they call them now, Progressive ideals that impede interfering in people's lives and we don't want that, correct?

You do understand that Republicans DO want to interfere in people's lives, they want to control what you do and how you do it.  They want to abolish these ideals that you say interfere in people's lives.  Do you see the hypocrisy with this?

I could go on and on and on with this but what it comes down to is, there was a time, not too long ago, that I was considering myself a Trump Supporter.  Yea, I want a 3rd party also, and I thought that he was quite funny and I figured he couldn't possibly fuck things up more than they already are.  

But then I woke up one morning and really started to listen.  While I will admit that Hillary has an enormous amount of baggage, and some questionable conduct, I truly believe she is the lesser of the two evils.  I also wish it was Bernie up there because I would not hesitate to pull that lever for him even now, but I feel at this point it would be a wasted vote.  

In ending, I would have to say that one of many reasons I will be voting for Hillary this election is because of the wild, unpredictable, sometimes really nasty, nature of Trump and some of his supporters. (not all of them, but a good bunch of them)  I was hoping at some point to be convinced by them to Vote for their candidate, but because of the crazy crescendo most of them have worked themselves into, I will remain part of the real silent majority and vote for Hillary on Nov 8th!   

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

The Weight Loss Journey - 2 years out

Hello All who enter my domain!

Here is where I tell my story about my weight loss surgery and the progression or degression I have made.

I am about 2 years out (surgery date 9/2/2014) from the date that I had my Gastric Sleeve Surgery.  I initially lost 130 lbs.

I have changed many bad habits along the way.  I eat protein first, very limited amount of bread, pasta or rice.  I take multivitamins daily, or at least when I remember! I have also come off of the 200 units of insulin that I was taking post surgery.  I also still can not eat more than a cup or 8 ozs of food at a time.  Depending on the density of the food sometimes I can only eat about 4 oz.

Its unfortunate that I have to say that I did gain back about 10 lbs from what I originally lost.  I have been trying to lose it again but it just doenst seem to want to go.  It makes me a little sad that I was never able to get under that 200 mark that I so had hoped that I would but I was a lot older when I finally got the operation, my metabolism wasnt what it used to be and I had been battling diabetes for years prior.  I know none of those things are excuses but they kinda actually are.

I do get out and move around, probably not as much as I should.  I'm not big on working out but I do love to garden and play with my dogs.  Thats gotta account for something, right? But I think my number 1 biggest problem is....Eating at night and sleep eating.

Don't laugh, sleep eating is a real problem.

I remember my mom used to do it.  I would wake up in the middle of the night and she would be in the kitchen eating a PB&J sandwich and milk at like 2am. Not saying a word, just standing there in the day she wouldn't remember a thing.

Although I'm not as bad as my mother was, I have the tendency to eat when I am tired and am trying to stay awake.  Which is a bad habit.  I try not to eat past 7pm.  But more often than not, that devil on my shoulder sneaks up and bites my earlobe and says, "you know what would be great right now?"

I know I really need to stop doing that but it gets me every time!

So do you night time snack even when you are not hungry?  How do you stop yourself?